For some people a mission is a opportunity they dream about all there life. For others it is an opportunity they are not sure they want to experience.
For me it was the latter. I wasn't really interested in a mission, most of my life. But as I neared my twenty-first birthday the thought that nothing else in my life was going on. maybe I should go and serve a mission. So I did or at least tryed to.
I was called to serve in the Oklahoma City Mission. I enterd the MTC struggling to understand everything. Then I entered the mission field. My mission president talked with me and told me I was in for a very large uphill climb. I was ready to prove that I could take that challenge and run with it. So I went out and put my entire heart into the work. I had two baptisms and still the struggle to get up and over this challenge was staring me in the face. Finally after three weeks in the mission field I was starting to feel the stress and strain and the mission president could see it in my face. By the time I hit the one month mark I was almost completely burned out. At five and a half week I made the decision to return home and end my mission after only two months.
It was one of the hardest decisions I had to make. I didn't really want to leave but I was just to burned out and exhausted. My mission president made me feel a little more assured about my decision when he said that I was not commanded to be there, that it was my decision.
My mission had many great experiences. I never lost anything, in fact I gained alot from it. But I was just not meant to be out there. My advice to any girl who is trying to decide whether to go or not. Don't feel obligated to go. And to the Sister missionary who is fighting to make the decision of whether to stay or go home. It is okay to say "I have tryed my best, but I just can't do it anymore. God has a work for you and it may just end up to be right where you live.